For a very idiotic reason.
So idiotic, that I'm actually embarrassed to admit it to another human being.
So I'm actually not going to admit it here too, my supposed sanctuary, my own platform where I promised myself I wouldn't censor anything.
I'm just going to dance around the reason here. To mark this as a reminder of this time.
The time when I felt like an egoistical idiot. When unbeknownst to anybody (but me), I acted like an idiot. When I went back on my own principles.
When I lied to others (and myself) as a self-defence mechanism.
Now to move on to dinner.